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The hardest person to prophecy, to speak to, to see clearly, and to understand, is and always will be yourself.
Because yourself always gets in the way.
No matter how much you know you, you are always arguing about you and about your interpretation of you.
And then it gets even more muddled when you pretend you know what others think...

It goes something like this.
You: I am _______.... Or, I think I am. But maybe I'm not. I want to be. Or do I? What if that's not right. Hm. Well this is a problem. I wonder what ____ thinks. I bet they think this. Oh dear. Probably. Well, maybe if I do this.... Oh no that didn't work at all. Well. I guess I'm more like ______. Oh. That doesn't work either. I should be more ______ that might fix it.

And then it keeps going and going and getting worse....
And you can't fix yourself. And no one else can fix you (Mostly because they're too busy doing the same thing to themselves as you are to yourself.)

And so it's a loop. A loop of people who aren't. Trapped and hidden away from people who are.
Even if you know how to fix it, you still aren't sure. And you don't want to try. Because, what if you're wrong? Your own thoughts and fears get in the way.
A constant battle.
Who wins?
No one knows.
You know.
You know God wins.
That's the entire point, isn't it?

But... Doesn't God want you to do stuff on your own?
Or.. Maybe He doesn't.

I don't know.
Do you know?
I think no one knows any more....

It's all a matter of perspective, anyways.